“The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth.” Psalms 145:18

Today I woke up truly missing God. I know that He is all around me but sometimes I can’t feel Him as powerfully as other days. Its my fault really. My Pastors message from yesterday has resounded more to me today than it did last night. He was speaking about our priorities and that we are only as close to God as we choose to be. How true this is. And how unfair to God. Christ gives me all of Himself and I only give Him what I can spare. This would be why I find myself missing Him. For weeks and weeks I can be undeniably on fire for Jesus, and then somewhere seemingly out of the blue I lose it and I feel the way I feel right now; a bit sad.

The picture above is the cross that was put at the accident site of one of my dear friends we lost my senior year of highschool. I drove out there saturday just to see how it was holding up and spent a little time reminiscing. Even though this morning I feel God to be momentarily distant, I am able to remember that He was the one who gave me and many others peace during that time of loss 4 years ago. It was Him who has always stood by me, even when I wasn’t actively pursuing His will. And it is He who meets with me every single time I need a friend, direction, comfort and love.

I am going to diligently pursue Pastor Bruce’s challenge this week: To not let my head hit the pillow each night until I have spent some quality time in the Word and with the God I am so in love with. It is the least I can do.

I passionately desire that intimacy back! Just enduring one day of distance from Him is enough to realize that He is what sustains my life. Oh how He loves us.

Uplifting tune of the day: How He Loves – David Crowder Band